Medicine for the Fake, Shallow & Absolutely Hideous.

Monday, November 23, 2009 8:56 AM

Happy belated birthday to Tricia!!!!

Tricia, you are now 5 years old, i am so proud of you. >': You are probably the nicest person i've met since coming to TP (sorry Shermaine, Larry, you guys are bitches AHAHAH). You're selfless (something i'm not), humble, open-minded, caring and you've got a really high tolerance level (anyone hoping to be my friend needs the last attribute as a pre-requisite).

Though i may tease you ALL the time, i truly do care for you and i hope nothing but the best for you. (L)

2.52am

Monday, November 16, 2009 10:42 AM

I'm pretty sure no one checks this page anymore.

I've been reading my archives. Sya's read my archives recently too. She felt i was happier then. Fuck, have you ever gotten the feeling where you just feel that the things you do and say don't mean anything to anyone anymore? I just want things to be as they were like, whenever in the past. EXCEPT SEC 2 LOL i was a mess back then.

Apart from the constant feelings of 'why-the-fuck-do-i-talk-so-much-when-nothing-i-say-matters', life's been pretty good. Lost quite a bit of weight. I'm like, 69kg now. I was 76kg the last time i blogged. I've gotten to know myself much more in the time i've been gone. Honestly, i'm just a bit disappointed that i've turned out to be a really boring person. Sure, i talk alot. Sure, some people find the things i say to be amusing, but that's it y'know. When i'm dead, i'm just gonna be known as the 'vaguely amusing gay boy'. Yeah, i'm openly gay now. Am i gonna tell my parents? Sure. But not now. Not just yet. I'll probably be kicked out and disowned (LOL). But hey, i've already made plans to live with Sya. So i'm pretty sure everything's gonna be ok in the end.

I've made new friends. I've lost some. Ok, not 'lost' per se, but i haven't spoken to a bajillion people in a long time. School's ok. Nothing much. I'm glad i find it a bit easier to speak to my classmates now.

All in all, i've changed alot. Not entirely for the better. I'm just glad i still believe that there's some good in everyone (NOT HISYAM, HE'S THE ANTI-CHRIST. Ok i kid) and that everything's going to be fine in the end.

8.17pm

Saturday, August 29, 2009 5:15 AM

HI.

I have a feeling that that 'HI' will be like, the last one. I'm sick and tired of blogging. Cause each time I sit down and type out whatever's been going on with me, I suddenly feel like my life's too boring to be blogged about. It's not that I'm too busy or whatever. I'm so free right now, I think I have time to solve 8375 jigsaw puzzles. So, goodbye and thank you.

TTYN.

8.42pm.

Friday, August 21, 2009 5:23 AM

HI.

FIRST EXAM PAPER TODAY! Oh and tomorrow's the first day of fasting. WOOHOO. Ok, woke up pretty early (@ 9. I usually wake up at 2+) and then went to school. Skipped prayers. Oops. LOL. Took the bus to school and saw Jeramy! His first paper was today so we went to the library to study together! YAY. I miss him LOL he's kind of, uh, weird. SOOOOOO, we studied. For about 2+ hours. I had like, 13 chapters to memorize. FUCK. Decided to totally ignore 2 chapters LOL. Audio Programming is so stupid. -_-

Jeramy's paper was at 2, so we went off at 1.45 and he went to take his paper and I, to the 7th floor labs. Nic and Ziyi (ZIYI IS ACTUALLY A FUCKING CYBORG.) were there, supposedly. Went to the 7th floor and this cleaner lady started speaking to me in Mandarin. I don't know how many times I've complained about people speaking to me in Mandarin but I know the number's quite high. Apparently, she wanted me to use my matric card to open the door to one of the labs cause she needed to clean it. DO NOT FRET WONDERFUL CLEANING LADY, FOR THE HUMAN CHEEZBURGER IS HERE!!!! Continued revising in the labs. Then Shermaine came. So we went down to the 4th floor to take the exam. Zhengyu brought his umbrella since it was raining and my RE5. But he didn't bring his pencil case. Wtf? We're supposed to be having our exams and he didn't bring anything. Such a freak. The paper, whoa. Tough. I lost like, 15 marks. LOL. But not as bad compared to some of the others.

I don't know why but I was really retarded after the paper. Wtf @ myself, seriously. I should be locked up. But going home was like, really fun! The people wanted to head over to TMall for I-don't-know-what. So we took bus 8! JERAMY TOOK THE SAME BUS AHHAHA STALKER-ISH MUCH? LOL Made racist jokes with Shermaine and Ming Liang in the bus. I really AM going to hell. I shall see you there then. Yes, YOU. Then when we reached the bus stop near Ngee Ann sec, this primary school kid walked into the bus and he smiled at me so I smiled back. Weird. Then he sat 2 seats to my left. Jeramy was to my right. Shermaine and Ming Liang were across me. LOL then Shermaine took a pic of me leaning towards the boy with my mouth totally open. Fucking retarded, I swear. Went off at the next stop and walked home. Saw Ama LOL I miss her alot.

OH YES, went to TMart to study yesterday, with Farie. I miss Farie ALOT. Ate fast food for the first time in like, 90138 years. Rhel joined us. AND I SPILLED COKE ALL OVER HIS BAG AND PORTFOLIO. FUCK OMG I'M SORRY. I'm just glad I only ruined one page of his portfolio and it was, to him, a useless page. Thank god. And you don't have to pay me the $52 LOL. I'm sorry! Walked to the bus stop @ TPJC with them both.

Ok, every year, during Ramadhan, my dad has the tv thing removed so we can't watch tv. Don't ask me why please. LOL. I'm just glad I have the internet. iie lurbbezxczxc y0u iinternetzxczxc!!~ [[x (L). I'm gonna try to only have water for breakfast for this whole fasting month. Wish me luck please!

TTYL then.

3.44pm.

Monday, August 17, 2009 12:29 AM

HI.

I'M SO HAPPY OMG. I'M DONE WITH 3 MODULES!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHH!!!!! Ok, I'm a bit bummed out cause I know for sure that I'll fail PRSP. The test was whacked. I could only answer one question. The weird part is, I CHEATED. I've never UNSUCCESSFULLY cheated before. LOL. So fucking hard. But whatever. I DON'T CARE ABOUT PRSP FOR I, MUHAMMAD TIRMIDZI BIN ZULKIFLI (no, this is not the name of some hat-making factory), HAS FINISHED 3 FUCKING MODULES. VisLit's final assignment was HELL. Spent 1 day drawing out 10 boxes and outlining them. Then spent the next drawing and outlining 2 boxes and then colouring them all in. My hand won't stop cramping omg. If I see another colour pencil, I'll puke. Then spent an hour on my visual journal.

I went to school today and headed over to the bookshop to get me an A3 folder. Expensive omg. But it's ok! I've gotten my allowance + Hari Raya money for clothes! Can't wait for the fasting month. I had better lose weight or I'm gonna be pissed. Ok, so, went to class and it was like, chaos LOL PAPER EVERYWHERE. Chen Yong was colouring for his life. People were printing like MAD. AND EVERYONE, I'M SORRY FOR CAUSING THE PRINTER TO PRINT OUT BILLIONS OF WEEKLY DOCUMENTATION WORKSHEETS AND ULTIMATELY, USING UP ALL OF THE PAPER!!! I really am sorry! Went up to Daren to pass up my work and omg, he says I'm gonna pass. I just hope he's right LOL I CAN'T AFFORD TO FAIL VISLIT. I'm already gonna fail PRSP. I'd like to keep my failures to a bare minimum tyvm. Went to design school after that for breakfast cum lunch. We spent quite alot of time just sitting there, talking about people AHAHAHAH. AND SHERMAINE, PLEASE TAKE CARE OF YOURSELF AND YOUR BABY. Kala Jr. AHAHAHAH. And oh yeah, Shermaine got herself a tattoo! I want to hit it.

And Zhengyu doesn't think the HT order got processed. We're gonna e-mail them. HT sells lots of awesome stuff you can't get in Singapore, but it's such a hassle to order from them. Pffttt.

AND EVERYONE, BREATHE CAROLINA'S NEW ALBUM IS OUT. OMFG IT'S AWESOME. I CAN SERIOUSLY CRY RIGHT NOW. Told Ranjeet about them releasing all the new songs on their Myspace before the CD actually comes out in stores and SHE WENT BALLISTIC. LOL MASS DOWNLOADING FTW!! 'The Dressing Room' is currently my FAVOURITE song. (L)

Since I'm left with just INCG and CMath, I think I'll take a break for now LOL. INCG exam on Friday. Urgh, essay papers disgust me and my cramping hand. CMath paper on Monday. I think it's gonna be easy. (Y)

TTYL then.

1.27pm.

Thursday, August 13, 2009 10:24 PM

HI.

I AM CURRENTLY IN THE SCHOOL LIBRARY AND IFAH IS BESIDE ME, STUDYING. Wasn't feeling all that confident about today's lab test when the day began, but Kathleen just told me that the lab test's gonna be easier than the assignment, so I don't think I'll have any trouble with it. Of course, I'll still be cheating. (Y) I like thumbdrives. Ifah's worried I'll get caught. Awwww. AHAHHA.

SO WISH ME LUCK AND I'LL TTYL THEN.

12.41am.

8:58 AM

HI.

OK, SCHOOL IS FUCKED UP. Guess I'll start from the starting of this week.

Tuesday, INCG presentation. My presentation was fine I guess!! Talked alot LOL. Everyone else's presentation sucked. AHAHAHHAA ok kidding omg. Zhengyu didn't come. Wanted to call HT, but it's ok cause we called them the next day! Ok, so, Tuesday was fine. Went to TMall after INCG to get my formal wear. Fuck, my butt looked HUGE in them formal pants. Unlike Danny, I wasn't made to wear formal clothes. OK, WEDNESDAY, I think CMath has GOT to be the easiest subject to pass. Imo, of course. Then we called HT. Borrowed Shermaine's voice AHAHAHAH. Ok nvm. SO THEY'RE GONNA SHIP THE STUFF SOON. FUCKING EXCITED. Can't wait for my clear lenses (turquoise OMG. No, not contact lenses) and my Charlie The Unicorn stuff. And thanks alot Zhengyu, for helping me order. You may be really really weird, but you're real nice. (Y)

Oh yeah, wore my SIZE M, yes, SIZE M polo tee on Wednesday. Felt weird. I swear, EVERYONE was staring at my bulging fats. LOL. Went to Design school for lunch. The people there are EXPERTS at staring, I swear. First they'd be looking at my body, then they'll look at my face. Then I'd be giving them my 'Eh cb, what you want' face. AND THANK YOU SHERMAINE, FOR PAYING FOR MY LUNCH. I'm really grateful. euu sh00 niicezxczxc w0rhzxczxc!!~ [[x But honestly, you're really nice. I think I'd cry if you weren't in my class LOL.

Half the class were gonna present their WDS projects after lunch. So that explains why Larry wore formal clothes today. :) KATHLEEN, I DON'T CONSIDER YOUR OUTFIT TO BE FORMAL AHAHAHAHA. Who in the world wears a blazer with running shoes. -_- Zi Yi's project was, FUCKING GODLIKE. The rest of us look like sad sods next to him.

Ok, so, yesterday was my turn to present, so I came to school in my formal clothes. Used Chinaman's formal shoes. They were clean when I left the house. NOW THEY'RE FILLED WITH MY BLOOD. Those shoes can now be classified under 'weapons of torture'. I can't feel my toes omg. Went to school for CMSK. But we didn't do anything. Waste my time. Pffttt. Spent the two hours worrying about PRSP with Zhengyu. But honestly, I don't mind failing PRSP and retaking it in the Oct semester. I'd have a second chance to pay attention from the starting. But whatever LOL.

Met Ifah for breakfast @ ITAS. I don't know why, but everyone's suddenly so nice to me, buying food for me. Ifah bought a plate of nasi padang and had me share it with her. (L) And she couldn't decide on one drink, so she asked me to get 3 different cups of drinks. Lemon tea, lime juice and bandung (BANDUNG WIN) and she couldn't finish ANY of them. So I had half a plate of rice + 3 cups of different beverages. The lime juice seriously tasted like soap. LOL. Then Ifah had to go for class, and I still had time to kill, so I joined Khai and his two friends (who are really nice.) over at their table. Khai's still a bitch LOL HE MADE FUN OF EVERYONE, INCLUDING THE CLEANING AUNTY. AHAHAHHAHAAHHAHA. We talked and all. It was nice talking to Malay-speaking people for a change. Oh, I'm the only person in class who can speak Malay (ok, not counting Sophia and Wen Fu LOL). So I get lonely sometimes. It was really easy speaking to Khai's friends even though I've never spoken to them before LOL. Just like with Shaf. Omg Shaf. :(

Ok, so, went up to class after that. Zhengyu bought Pringles. Addictive stuff. LOL. AND I HAD TO MAKE MY PRESENTATION WITH A FULL BLADDER. IFAH'S FAULT (it's ok, I still (L) you AHAHAH). I was insanely tired. My presentation sucked. I didn't talk much. All I did was stand there + click the mouse 5000 times. Jean took 10 marks from me cause I told her I didn't go through the microsite practical LOL. Whatever omg. But I honestly think mine's better then Nic's. Sorry Nic. :( Took pictures after that. WENT HOME. My feet died on me halfway walking home, so I had to drag myself up the stairs. HAH. I think throughout the day, people were staring at my ass. I am now convinced that my ass needs an I.C of it's own. AHAHAH. Then it's race would be like 'Analese' or something. It's ok if you don't get it. It's 12.36am and I'm tired.

So, PRSP lab test today + due date for assignment 2. I have NO idea how to do Qn4 of assignment 2 and I'm totally not prepared for the lab test. But then again, I don't mind failing and retaking PRSP. AND I CONVINCED CELIA TO APPLY FOR THE OCT INTAKE @ TP!!!!! Wanted her to apply for my course, but they didn't offer it. So she ended up choosing Information Technology. I hope you get in!!! Then we'd be seeing each other at school pretty often! (Y)

Was watching MTV just now because I was bored. Then David Guetta's song, 'When Love Takes Over Ft. Kelly Rowland' was being played. Imo, it was fucking good. It was like Coldplay's 'Clocks' mixed with Owl City playbacks + sassy female vocals. Love it. (L)

Ok, it's 12.40. I've got a huge lab test today. I'm going to failllllllllllllllllllllll. Wish me luck though.

TTYL then.